Isn’t it time, yet? Surely enough time has passed between the initial ignition And the presently mundane. But maybe the inspiration never occurred – No, that’s a lie. That’s an excuse. Around every corner, Conspicuous and dark there is that feeling. An inevitability, no matter how cliche A choice. That moment. To put the black pseudo-ink on a bright white page Or the pencil to the finely lined notebook, making that decision is fatalistic. There’s no going back to the safe space within your head. Memories flood through your mind It’s the Missouri River pushing you back And under the…

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Poetry

This malcontented day creeps slowly by a slow shuffle of feet dragging over rubbled concrete greys becoming greys of a different shade – all a mix of white and black the view from my window creaks under the damp weight of the afternoon a sheen of sweat lingers in the air, tense and earthy and you still cross my mind, running between the shadows and misty longing revenge always puts a bitter taste under my tongue and bends me backwards in ecstasy but what could be better than a slow burning and having no choice but to burn with you…

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Poetry

Well, it’s 2016. Like, eleven days into it. I have been negligent to my blog. I’m so sorry. Let me tell you about the things that are going on in my life right now. I have been stressed about money, I have been stressed about things that are indirectly somewhat dealing with money. And I’ll tell you right now, I am slightly drunk. Like on a scale of 1 to 10, I’m probably about a 6.75. Shhhhhhhhhhhh…. It’ll be okay, I promise. So my boyfriend and I are going to be moving in together sometime this year. Most likely around August…

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Blog Every Day Things

Sometimes I amaze myself with how productive I can be. Other days, not so much. Often, I am faced with the dilemma of being too productive, and thus not having anything to do at work when the store is empty. Really not that big of a deal, right? But we all know how slowly time can drag by when not actively doing anything. So here’s a list of all the fun things I do when I run out of things to do. Wipe the tops of the benches off Organize the sock bin Dance around to the music like I’m…

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Blog Every Day Things

Okay, I’ll admit it – I’m a big, fat, left-wing feminist. I have known this for quite some time, now, and I’m very much okay with it. I am pro LGBTQ* rights, pro abortion, pro marijuana legalization, pro Black Lives Matter, pro $15 minimum wage. When I was younger, my mother told me that everybody was created equal. It has become central to my belief system. Anymore I have learned that the media is biased, full of sensationalized bullshit, and lately it seems to be worse than I ever remember it being. At this point you may be wondering Who does…

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Blog Rants and Things

Working in the shoe store, I’m around the general public a lot, and like most businesses, we have our fair share of regulars. You get to know all of the insecurities any number of people could have, and a lot of the time, you can see the effect you have on their confidence levels. This week, I had the pleasure of interacting with a woman with whom I made a connection with the previous time she was in the store. I had been informed that the woman, who we’ll call Sue, had lost over 100 pounds. She never told me…

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Blog Rants and Things

What they say is true, that love can be found in the most unexpected places. I met him on a roof and we gazed at the brilliant, sparkling lights. There were fireworks through March next year, and they didn’t stop when we were back on solid ground. It was a shared affection for coming together –  we took our discords and arguments and made a harmony of bodies where similar thoughts were lacking. April and May came around, and there were fewer shows of powdered lights – a tedious haze grew, instead. I became a smoldering mess, not knowing what…

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Poetry

This quiet affection daily grows – A look – a smile – grips me Like a vine that twines around a Blooming cherry tree. Each spoken word rings in my ears – I take in every note – A symphony of ups and downs In which my mind takes float. Desire stems not from handsome looks, But thirst of knowing him – To be the ink with which he writes on paper of my skin. This passion courses through my veins Like fire stalking prey – Consuming what was once so strong – A force to be obeyed. My distant…

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Poetry

I would tell you everything, From my first transgression to my last. The words would explode from my mouth like a tumbled can of beer, frothing at the seams. They would sing you a song. discordant notes coming together, All to lull you into a state of ease. I’d give you soft grey cloudbursts and cool sleep. no dark nightmares or hardened tensions. I would weave us a better story to live in. Without self-righteous crowds shoving through our lives, just bright green trees – the kinds that won’t make me sneeze – And enough time each day for the…

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Poetry

After a delicious weekend of relaxing, it’s about time that I get this thing started. This weekend my boyfriend came to town – we live about an hour and a half away from each other. We enjoyed two of the best meals we have ever tasted together. We also took a drive up to one of the close by lakes, and it was really a beautiful drive. It had been a really cold night, and the mountains had a dusting of snow. I thought that we would have hit snow halfway into the drive, but the snow line was higher…

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Every Day Things